My desires and passions had gone cold as if it were the barren days of winter, even though it was the first day of summer. In order to get rid of my lethargy, I forcibly got out of my chair, stumbled out to the mailbox, opened it and pulled out a brochure for the Pathways to Mastership course not knowing I was about to detour off the path of Objectivism. Little did I know another pathway awaited me.
A State of Desperation
You might wonder what happened to cause me to reach a state of desperation. Well, it began in early March when I received the sad news that my best friend George W. had suffered an aneurism and passed away at the young age of 42. His wife Nancy, now his widow, tearfully delivered the news to me. When the heartbreaking phone call came I was celebrating the completion of my first project, “How to Win the Drug War.”, which supports the legalization of drugs. The devastating news ended my celebration.
During the many nights of enlightenment, George and I would imbibe some spirits and talk about Objectivism and Economic Science. As the night went on, our conservation became more spirited. I never realized his death would cause me to detour onto a different pathway.
I did my best to recover, but it wasn’t to be. Soon my marriage started unraveling. Our love and passion was slowly disappearing…or maybe my flame just burned out. On top of that my project ended up only a modest success. My life seemed to reel out of control.
One day in the middle of April, my wife told me she had rented an apartment and was moving out. I didn’t feel a thing because my emotions were close to dead. The day she left I remember laying on my bed in a lonely room, thinking who cares. By then I cared about very little.
A New Flame Quickly Burns Out
In the first week of June, a cool blonde named Heather crossed my path. In retrospect, I realized I must have been out of my mind, but I pursued her with a renewed passion. Within a period of 10 days, she allowed me to take her to the lake, a night of dancing, shopping and out to dinner.
One day I convinced her to come to my place for an evening of music and romance. My flame burned brightly as I picked her up and took her home. We arrived and sat comfortably on the couch, sipped some wine and talked and laughed. The time came to make my move. Much to my dismay she rejected me and said she only liked me as a friend. When I made another attempt to kiss her, she turned her head and asked me to take her home. As I drove her home my flame burned out. My new exciting pathway turned out to be a dead end.
The Next Day
I had to work the next day and drove there in a depressive fog. The joy of my existence had taken an extended vacation. I arrived at work, sat at my desk and hung my head in sorrow. Suddenly, I realized my management job no longer inspired me. In fact, nothing turned me on…not even my objectivist principles.
A young lady who worked in the office walked up to my desk and asked me what was wrong. All I could do was shake my head. She said “This ought to cheer you up.” She handed me a couple of joints.
That night I played some of my favorite music starting with an album by the Moody Blues and lit a joint. It seemed to help, but I still felt a sense of melancholy, actually embracing my sadness, then I crashed out.
In my dreams, Mary Jane sat on my lap passionately kissing me. My sexuality heated up and took me to ecstatic heights. Then everything faded away.
Pathway to Mastership
Since, I felt spiritually dead, I carefully looked over the brochure. It indicated you could reach spiritual mastery by obtaining the Buddha or Christ Consciousness. I thought anything has to be better than my current state of mind. Life felt unbearable after the joy of my existence vanished.
The day the course arrived I felt a sense of excitement and eagerly started walking down the pathway to mastership. Part of my new journey was reading mystical and New Age books. I actually enjoyed them, although in the back of my mind I could not accept a lot of what they proposed. Still, the beauty of the spiritual experiences during meditations opened up my mind and heart.
I astral traveled, time traveled, indulged in past life experiences, meditated with the masters in the Himalayan mountains and even met Aphrodite. At least I pretended I did all this. Some of my objectivist friends thought I lost my mind…and maybe I did.
I stuck with it until February the next year. When I meditated I felt the euphoria of my spiritual pathway; unfortunately at other times, the emptiness of my life became apparent. I didn’t seem to be able to transform my experiences into reality.
The creator and narrator of the Pathways to Mastership course said something rather interesting at the end. He said “You’re probably wondering if you are making up all these experiences in your head. Of course you are. Everything is all mind.” I thought “What about objective reality?”
I realized I wasn’t getting any closer to mastership and I knew I couldn’t abandon reason, individualism and my belief in laissez faire capitalism. One evening in early February I was with one of my objectivist friends, Jorge who kept challenging me to prove anything the mystical teachings claim. It became obvious to me that a person had to accept them on faith. Once again, I became a Reluctant Objectivist.
Benefits of Meditation
Books such as the “Life and Teachings of Masters of the Far East” series report mystical experiences as if they were fact. Some of them radiate beauty like a magnificent work of art or an inspirational piece of music. You almost wish they were true. Still, isn’t it more likely that these stories of heightened awareness are meant to encourage you to accomplish more in your life? This series of books helped me to see through illusion, and overcome my limitations.
Now that being said, here are some of the benefits you will receive from daily meditation. There are many studies that support the following.
- Lower heart rate.
- Lowered levels of cortisol and lactate which reduces stress.
- Reduced cholesterol levels.
- Decreased blood pressure. High blood pressure can cause erectile dysfunction which definitely could interfere with your enjoyment of an important pleasure.
- Higher levels of DHEAS in senior citizens which is a sign of youthfulness. Ah, to be physically, mentally and sexually active in the twilight of your years.
- Greater creativity. Adding creativity to your life will reward you with a greater variety of marvelous experiences.
- Decreased depression. It’s difficult to enjoy life if you’re depressed.
- Increased feelings of vitality and rejuvenation. To feel eternally young is a blessing you don’t want to live without.
- Increased happiness. Isn’t happiness pretty much the end game of life?
- An increased power of reasoning. You will be able to integrate concepts more efficiently.
I want to thank Dr. Joan Borysenko for pointing out the many benefits of meditation. I can say first hand that you will receive these benefits and many more with a regular practice of meditation.
Obviously, I’m not a spiritual master, however, my waltz down the pathway of mastership taught me the value of meditation and helped me accomplish a oneness with reality.
RA Meyer – Master the Social Maze